Why?

Why I feel so alone...?
[not lonely...]
Why they ignore me...?
Every time I say something,
I can't get any reply...
I think I better keep my mouth shut...
Bcoz watever I say, nobody listen...

Did I do something wrong...?
Or I speak too soft...?
Or i speak nonsense..?
Can u give me some respond...?

I always walk bhind the crowd...
Coz I was ignored...
Maybe you think it's normal...
No need to be sad...
But, for me, it hurt me...
I think of my SMP gang...
YokeSee, KerXin and LihLin...
At least...
They listen what I'm trying to say...

I walked toward SJI gate alone...
Started on my MP3 on my phone...
On my way to take bus and buy my new scul shoes...

Why my phone has so much korean sad song...?
Why I dropped my tear in the bus...?
Yea... Tear but not Tears...
It's so embarassing if ppl bside us see us crying...

Why I met SJI friend in the bus...?
I swallow back the tear...
Acted like nothing happen...
But I can guess my voice was different...
Shaking...

She asked me:
"Why alone?"
I had to reply:
"Buy shoes only wat... no need ppl accompany me..."

I knew, only KerXin will agree to accompany me wherever I want to go...

I force myself to be tough until I get down off the bus...
Walked and finding the Bata shop again...


Sad, I have to solve it by my favourite food...


In the restaurant, I saw my Ex-colleague...
Said 'Hi' to her, and continued my lunch...
I told everything to LihLin by sms...
Once again... My tear...
Facing the Ex-colleague,
I had to hang my head all the time...

It's a torment experience if you want to cry in public...
Becoz you can't control yourself...
I can't comtrol myself...