说到哪个女人最强？在我生命中，就出现了一个。让我佩服得五体投地。
她从小就被亲身母亲交给了养母，
因为穷嘛~还算幸运，养母对她不错。虽然没有富裕的生活，
但总算吃得饱，饿不死。她告诉了我小插曲。她小小的时候就不被生母允许出去晒太阳，因为小孩子容易生病嘛~但有一天，她被人带到河边晒太阳。
晒了很久，都没有人骂她。原来那天就是她来到新家庭的日子。。。长大后，她后来被告知，
原来当天晒太阳，生母也在场。生母一脸黑黑的表情，暗示新家庭说不要让她晒太阳。
养母回答：既然收了钱，那就不要再来找孩子了。她后来都活得很独立。身在养父养母家，还是自己给自己找零用钱。小时候，就在工厂做 kuih kapit。然后到 Selayang Pasar 买菜。过后稍微长大了，就在家里教补习。养父还特地为她做了一个黑板。
那个黑板还保留到现在。
毕业了，爱上 aerobik，就和朋友在 Jalan Ipoh 开了一间舞蹈学校。可是，做了不久，倒闭了。29 岁，她嫁给了一个离过婚的男人，一个和大部分男人不一样的男人。有了一个女儿，男人并不顾家。不是说没回家，而是男人喜欢赌博。仍然，在1996年，不小心的情况下又生了一个女儿。男人因欠债在 1998年离开了家，永远都不曾搭过家里半步。四年后，她认识了一个家境不错的男子。发展了，却惹来前男人打扰，一度惹上了官非。男子也乘机跟她要了一笔不少数目的钱。她给了，金钱上就出现了财务问题。车子被银行托走了。她向了几个高利贷公司借钱，拍卖掉新屋子，还抵押了旧屋子。期限到了，没钱还，AH LONG 找上门了。每一天，门户都管得紧紧的。有一天，AH LONG 在一个下午来找人。她出去做工了，剩下小女儿在家。小女儿躲在窗口下面，可是 AH LONG因每人应门，
气得把窗口玻璃打破了，吓着了躲在下面的小女儿。为了躲避高利贷，她带着两个女儿寄宿在别人家。别人家的脸色并不好看，只能忍。大女儿当时还在 UPSR 考试呢！她曾说过：“我现在好想跳楼。”大女儿也着急的哭了。大女儿过后尝试着不独立，让她因为放心不下女儿们而放弃自杀的念头。还好，她还活到现在。八年后的今天，她人还好好的，只是拼命工作地把眼睛累坏了。银行的贷款就要还玩了。大女儿也即将上大学了。她家里，仍然住着三个女人。写到这里，我掉泪了。我花了两个小时为她准备糖水。希望她感受得到。我其实很爱她。母亲节快乐！
I need a netbook or a laptop madly...
KerXin asked me,
''Why don't go borrow from other ppl's one..?''
Seriously,
I just need a portable computer for 4 days use...
I can just borrow from someone else...
But I don't like the feeling of rely on someone...
Since I small,
when I was holding something which is not belong to me
(especially borrow from others),
something bad luck will happen on that thing...
Example 1:
I need a small mirror to wear contact lens outdoor...
I borrowed from one new friend, and that mirror is white in color...
I put the mirror in my bag for a moment...
After a while, when I take out the mirror...
the white color mirror become pink color...
OMG!!!
The pink color plastic in my bag 'lat sek'...
In the end, I washed the mirror for half an hour the clean that pink dirt...
Example 2:
During travelling to Singapore, I didn't bring slipper...
In the midnight, I want to buy some snack from convenient shop...
I lazy to wear my school shoes, so I borrowed Hui Shan's slipper...
I nearly fall down bcoz of the one level staircase...
OMFG!!!
The string of one of the slipper break off...
Example 3:
I borrowed someone's book...
I met a day with rain...
And then, the book was wet and berkedut-kedut...
Example 4:
I borrowed someone's pin...
In the end, I will lost it and not able to give back to that person..
Example 5:
During whole SMP-gang work for Popular BookFest,
whose off-day, she need to bring lunch for the whole gang...
The day b4 I off,
I received everyone's tupperware...
When I want to put in the food I cooked in those tupperwares,
@#$%^&*!!!
I realised that CheeYeng's tupperware melted for a small part...
Coz I put it near the gas...
Example 6:
During the PSS Gathering of one of the year,
I borrowed PuiSan's shirt for a performance...
The next day,
when I planned to return the shirt to her,
'spot check' happened...
The prefect confiscated the shirt...
AWWWWW!!!
I cry madly about the shirt, coz it's not mine...
And I think that shirt sure branded one...
But then I forgot what happen at last...
This is my fate...
I cannot hold something which is not belong to me...
Laptop is not a cheap thing...
I also won't borrow mine to anyone out of my vision...
What if other people..?
I really scare if something happen on expensive thing...
I cry 3 days also cannot settle the problem...
That's why,
when I need something,
I will save money to buy it...
Most of you around me found that I always want to buy something...
This is the reason...
And therefore,
my pencil box is super big...
Everything is inside...
So,
I don't like to BORROW this word...
except if it's urgent...
In some days,
I posted 'I dun like CNY' in my MSN status...
Here's I tell you why I dun like...
Erm...
Actually, NOT dun like lar...
It's NO FEEL~
10 years ago,
I saw my neighbor bought her family: sons, daughters and grandchildren,
to go for a trip...
They were so happy in the lift...
Another corner of the lift,
just had me, my mom and my sis...
My tears dropped when the neighbors left...
I was thinking:
My family are not complete~
In CNY, such an important festival,
my house don't have a man,
just left 3 females celebrate together...
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I don't like CNY song...
Always DONG DONG CHIANG...
Nothing else...
From I was borned until now...
still that same song...
[ I knew that's traditional, but I can't control my feeling of boredom ]
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When friends all back to to hometown during CNY,
I just stay in my house...
Ppl asking: "Not going hometown?"
I have to answer: ''I dun have hometown...''
Ppl asking: ''Sure get a lot of Ang Pau lor!''
My answer: ''No lar... I dun have relatives...''
Actually I have hometown...
I have relatives...
but for some matters,
I have NO relatives...
So, I have to answer like that to avoid further explanation...
Those reading my blog will know it soon...
